Saggitarius Moon

I'm back. Flying into Sydney early in the morning is great. The sun is just out and you land in a brand new Australian day. I appreciate living in this city, as beautiful as they come.

The flights were good, packed with people poured in from different airlines. The greener option perhaps, but not a chance of stretching a bit on to the next economy seat. After 23 hours in the air and numerous security checks, including having a French woman in uniform hand search me. I am officially tired and jetlagged.

I also noticed how "home" is unsettling. It is full of history, with its happy times and also its recent trying times. The beauty of being away for two weeks is that I could block some of the those painful memories and concentrate in the present. The temptation is then to change again my environment to move far away and start a new life. The desire to travel and move countries is apparently evident in my astrological chart as a Saggitarius Moon. I blame it on on that.

I start to wonder how some people can live in the same place all their lives, obviously there is something for me to learn. Sticking with things that I have perceived as painful wears me out and I have become used to removing myself from these situations. I see now that my learning should be geared to not see these things as painful or negative but as see them as they are.

The truth is that nothing that happens can make me less or more than what I know myself to be. The truth needs no defense.

True, I felt a little pinch when I arrived to no one waiting for me at the airport. I heard that little voice, all too familiar "If I had someone in my life, he would be here", but I decided to keep my head down, let it go and not dwell on it. I grabbed a taxi in silence. Came home to my own quiet place, had a shower, put on clean pjs and went to bed. Bliss. Still feeling whole.

I am getting ready to go to my favourite dance spot. I am nervous of landing back into my soup of emotions, rather than being the potato on the spoon as I have been in the last couple of weeks. I'll be grateful for the exercise. I will attempt to dance in presence.

See you soon,
E.